Hi ya’ll. I thought I would allow myself to do a little *shining* today and share with you my feature in the most recent Where Women Create Magazine. To say I feel honored to be included in this publication would be a serious understatement. A more accurate description of my feelings would be something like…
totally blown away and a little bit in awe.
To open up a magazine that you really love and see your own face, art and studio space staring back at you is a little bit surreal actually. One thing I noticed was a wave of, “I don’t deserve this” surfacing right alongside my squeals of joy. That reaction is so interesting to notice because on so many logical levels I actually do believe I deserve this kind of praise and attention. I mean, hell, I am super passionate about what I do and I’ve worked incredibly hard for everything that has come my way, but there continues to be some kind of deeper level story that can’t seem to believe/accept that this is my life—that perhaps I’m not really worthy of things being…
THIS. GOOD.
I suppose the most important thing (for now anyways) is to simply notice that I am experiencing these stories, right? The first chapter in my book is called, “Re-creating Your Story,” after all, so here we go again…time to take my own advice and start accepting the good, letting it inside on a cellular level, telling myself a new kind of story and not being afraid to stand tall in my light {insert deep breathe here}.
I understand that re-creating my “worthiness story” is a huge part of my evolutionary work right now. I mean, how can I help other people get their own worthiness if I haven’t totally gotten my own? {enter second deep breathe here}. Shifting this story is definitely a one-day-at-a-time-kind-of-a-thing as most big shifts are. However, I will say this, showing up everyday to write this blog has been one of the most healing things I’ve done in a long time. It goes so much deeper than telling you about my day, showing you pretty pictures and pondering how to live and paint more bravely. Actually…
it’s all about showing up for myself, believing in my truth and fearlessly using my voice to express these beliefs.
For those of you who have mentioned how much you are enjoying my posts, THANK YOU, I’m so happy to be adding this bit of light, insight or whatever you are receiving from this into your world. And for those of you who said you will be sad to see this end, please know this is just the beginning. I will not keep up my everyday blogging (what sane person can?), but I will most definitely keep writing. That, my friends, is the whole point of this love affair…to fall in love with my own voice.
Amen.
xo flora
